i’m not dead yet

still have an intermittent cough. survived the NIN concert – took my sister who doesn’t like NIN or industrial music or anything that was going on at the concert – but had a reasonably good time myself. I wrote a few words in a paper journal about the experience, I may adapt and re-post them here later – they’re not exactly about the concert, more about being totally alone in the world. I used 26 hours of PTO last week being sick, and by now my department is totally overflowing with a backlog of work. Plus one of the regular employees is out on vacation this week. I have to work “early” tomorrow, because the company isn’t open as late as normal for the holiday, so I’m going to bed post-haste, so I can get up at, like, 6AM. It’ll probably take me a couple of weeks to get the department caught up, and then I’ll continue to not get any recognition for working harder than anyone they’ve ever had working there, because I’m apparently invisible.

Did you know that things cost money? It’s beginning to be a hassle.

living dying

fever’s down. headache’s basically gone. throat only hurts when I cough. sinus/nose productivity is only about 10-15% above normal output. coughing is intermittent and almost entirely unproductive, though still burning. breathing feels normal, though when I’m laying down I can sometimes hear fluid in my lungs, but I think it’s all at the top, stuff that drained from my nose. lots of appetite. the rash (did I mention the rash that began with a constellation of tiny, tiny red dots in my left elbow?) spread further, now up and down about 9 inches on the left arm, down my entire inside right forearm, up the right bicep on the body side, and when I woke up this morning and showered, I found some on the backs of my knees.

But I’m lethargic, light-headed, and having trouble concentrating, so, while I had to go to work today because of the attendance policy combined with my lack of medical insurance (if you’re out of work for three consecutive days, they don’t let you back without a doctor’s note releasing you back to work), I didn’t get a whole lot done. There’s a type of work only I do, so I did all of that that was there, and I tried to keep working, but I kept feeling like I was going to pass out… like I feel now… so I went to request the rest of the day off, and just seeing me, my bosses scooted to the furthest corner of their office and covered their faces and shoo’d me away home. I think it was the rash. Oh, and one of them has a wedding in a couple of weeks she doesn’t want to be deathly ill for. Anyway. Unless I feel awesome tomorrow morning, I don’t work until Monday, so I should have time to heal.

I’ll go make a little post about NIN, then go sleep.

i feel sick

(re-posted from a comment I made on my LJ this morning)

I am terrible sick. My whole body aches, my head and face ache, my throat is sore (though whether from the deep, burning coughing which began yesterday afternoon (and hasn’t let up) or the fluids draining down my throat that began last night, I don’t know. I haven’t found a thermometer yet, but I’m probably running a high fever. Uhgg… and starting this morning, nausea to boot – every time I feel a cough coming on, it feels like it’ll push me to dry heave. I better eat something.

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