Do I even exist?

“If you’re certain the possibility of the words “I will always love you” being spoken in your frame of existence is so apocraphyl that you’ll wouldn’t even be able to hear them whilst eavesdropping on a conversation at a romantic restaurant (table for one, and yes, you’ve tried), perhaps you should see if fire still hurts. Go to the stove and hold your forearm over the flame. If you scream, you probably still exist. … By the way, if you do exist, you’re still the only one who knows it.”
Pretty Girl

Well, the spot on my right hand where I burned myself has started to blister, so I probably do exist… Even if I am the only one who knows it.

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Teel

Author, artist, romantic, insomniac, exorcist, creative visionary, lover, and all-around-crazy-person.

10 thoughts on “Do I even exist?”

  1. You do exist. You are separate from everyone. You can be happy alone. That is in fact the only way that you can attract another person. To be happy. To be the “party”. To be the kind of person another wants to be with. Not pathetic with a burnt body. Do you really want the sympathy vote? I guess that there are people who get by with that. Do you want to be one of them?
    Look in the AZ Rep today. You will be pleased. The inner smile will outweigh the tears.
    Know —-Know that God loves you and has a plan for your life. Be an example of what you know that God wants you to be. Live for Christ. You will shine. People will see it and be attracted to the Christ in you. It happened to me.
    All by myself, I am pretty pathetic. With Christ on my side, I am a pretty big person. The winning team you know. All of the history of the faith. All of the saints who have gone before me. All of the wisdom in the background. I feel comfortable being on the team. All the people who love me because I love the Lord. It is a very big family. You are not alone.
    Everyone in the world has felt your sorrow and pain to some degree. It is not easy to keep a good attitude when the world is crumbling around you. Keep your eyes on God and your glance on your problems.

  2. You do exist. You are separate from everyone. You can be happy alone. That is in fact the only way that you can attract another person. To be happy. To be the “party”. To be the kind of person another wants to be with. Not pathetic with a burnt body. Do you really want the sympathy vote? I guess that there are people who get by with that. Do you want to be one of them?
    Look in the AZ Rep today. You will be pleased. The inner smile will outweigh the tears.
    Know —-Know that God loves you and has a plan for your life. Be an example of what you know that God wants you to be. Live for Christ. You will shine. People will see it and be attracted to the Christ in you. It happened to me.
    All by myself, I am pretty pathetic. With Christ on my side, I am a pretty big person. The winning team you know. All of the history of the faith. All of the saints who have gone before me. All of the wisdom in the background. I feel comfortable being on the team. All the people who love me because I love the Lord. It is a very big family. You are not alone.
    Everyone in the world has felt your sorrow and pain to some degree. It is not easy to keep a good attitude when the world is crumbling around you. Keep your eyes on God and your glance on your problems.

  3. Again, this funny quote (from a humorous site I linked to when quoting it) is not really intended to be taken seriously as the whole story. For the rest of you who are concerned that I might be self-immolating, the burn was from baking cookies the other day, and not particularly serious. For those of you worried about my soul, STOP. It’s fine.

    Look, if you don’t get it, don’t let it get to you. (By ‘it’ here, I mean me and my life and everything I post here.)

  4. Again, this funny quote (from a humorous site I linked to when quoting it) is not really intended to be taken seriously as the whole story. For the rest of you who are concerned that I might be self-immolating, the burn was from baking cookies the other day, and not particularly serious. For those of you worried about my soul, STOP. It’s fine.

    Look, if you don’t get it, don’t let it get to you. (By ‘it’ here, I mean me and my life and everything I post here.)

  5. Again, this funny quote (from a humorous site I linked to when quoting it) is not really intended to be taken seriously as the whole story. For the rest of you who are concerned that I might be self-immolating, the burn was from baking cookies the other day, and not particularly serious. For those of you worried about my soul, STOP. It’s fine.

    Look, if you don’t get it, don’t let it get to you. (By ‘it’ here, I mean me and my life and everything I post here.)

  6. “With upturned eyes to the lord, he walked off the cliff and fell to his death”

    — Source unknown

    That is one of my favorite quotes when dealing with blind faith. I understand faith, as it is needed. What I dont even concieve of is a person with such blind devotion to an idea. The winning team? Any team who deals with fear and sticks its fingers in its ears and screams lalala when someone else speaks will be the winner in their own mind. With such blind faith, all you can see is the faults and shadows everywhere, trying to save souls to get a positive credit to pay your way into heaven. There is nothing here to save, and your preaching falls upon deaf ears. I dont walk with christ, I dont need that crutch to wake up and go to work in the morning. If something bad happens to me, I suck it up, deal with it, and move on. Bad things happen all day long, to everyone, its called life. Entropy happens. If I hit bottom, which I did, living out of my car, then pulled myself up out by my own devices, *I* did that. I take credit for all the good things, and bad things that I deal with on a day to day basis. I dont need to thank a fictional creation for an idea on good things that happened because I worked for them. Hard work begets good things. No one who comes here is looking for grace, there is nothing that needs to be saved, and no one who needs to put aside all personal responsibility for the things that happen. Its the lack of personal resposibility that is causing all of society to spiral down, and my generations work at accepting responsibility for our actions and working for a better future that is saving it. If you need that crutch to get up in the morning, then by all means go for it, but do not try to force it on other people, where it is not needed nor appreciated.

  7. “With upturned eyes to the lord, he walked off the cliff and fell to his death”

    — Source unknown

    That is one of my favorite quotes when dealing with blind faith. I understand faith, as it is needed. What I dont even concieve of is a person with such blind devotion to an idea. The winning team? Any team who deals with fear and sticks its fingers in its ears and screams lalala when someone else speaks will be the winner in their own mind. With such blind faith, all you can see is the faults and shadows everywhere, trying to save souls to get a positive credit to pay your way into heaven. There is nothing here to save, and your preaching falls upon deaf ears. I dont walk with christ, I dont need that crutch to wake up and go to work in the morning. If something bad happens to me, I suck it up, deal with it, and move on. Bad things happen all day long, to everyone, its called life. Entropy happens. If I hit bottom, which I did, living out of my car, then pulled myself up out by my own devices, *I* did that. I take credit for all the good things, and bad things that I deal with on a day to day basis. I dont need to thank a fictional creation for an idea on good things that happened because I worked for them. Hard work begets good things. No one who comes here is looking for grace, there is nothing that needs to be saved, and no one who needs to put aside all personal responsibility for the things that happen. Its the lack of personal resposibility that is causing all of society to spiral down, and my generations work at accepting responsibility for our actions and working for a better future that is saving it. If you need that crutch to get up in the morning, then by all means go for it, but do not try to force it on other people, where it is not needed nor appreciated.

  8. “With upturned eyes to the lord, he walked off the cliff and fell to his death”

    — Source unknown

    That is one of my favorite quotes when dealing with blind faith. I understand faith, as it is needed. What I dont even concieve of is a person with such blind devotion to an idea. The winning team? Any team who deals with fear and sticks its fingers in its ears and screams lalala when someone else speaks will be the winner in their own mind. With such blind faith, all you can see is the faults and shadows everywhere, trying to save souls to get a positive credit to pay your way into heaven. There is nothing here to save, and your preaching falls upon deaf ears. I dont walk with christ, I dont need that crutch to wake up and go to work in the morning. If something bad happens to me, I suck it up, deal with it, and move on. Bad things happen all day long, to everyone, its called life. Entropy happens. If I hit bottom, which I did, living out of my car, then pulled myself up out by my own devices, *I* did that. I take credit for all the good things, and bad things that I deal with on a day to day basis. I dont need to thank a fictional creation for an idea on good things that happened because I worked for them. Hard work begets good things. No one who comes here is looking for grace, there is nothing that needs to be saved, and no one who needs to put aside all personal responsibility for the things that happen. Its the lack of personal resposibility that is causing all of society to spiral down, and my generations work at accepting responsibility for our actions and working for a better future that is saving it. If you need that crutch to get up in the morning, then by all means go for it, but do not try to force it on other people, where it is not needed nor appreciated.

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