Author: Teel

Author, artist, romantic, insomniac, exorcist, creative visionary, lover, and all-around-crazy-person.

Happy New Year!

So, yesterday was the first day of the first week of the first month of Year Zero. Or, to be brief, 1.1.1.0. (Today is 2.1.1.0, for those of you who don’t remember where to DL a PDF version of this year’s calendar.)

Some of you were paying attention; I got three calls yesterday afternoon wishing me a happy new year. Sorry if I wasn’t chatty. I’m still not telling you what the calendar has been counting down to. Still, thanks for paying attention to my ravings.

Novel Progress Update: 1.1.1.0

Well, I seem to have got stuck right after I started page 15. Not that I couldn’t think of anything to write, but that something about the way my mind operates prevents me from getting anything worthwhile done while other people are around & awake. I was starting page 15 on Saturday and my roommate came home and didn’t leave again until just before my Sunday night block of TV started, so no more work got done.

My roommate announced that she is moving out, which could help, except that she’s probably not moving out until the end of the month, so … that doesn’t really help. She’s unemployed, to boot, so she’s ALWAYS hanging around the house doing nothing, which makes me want to hang around the house doing nothing with her. I mean, if she were getting something done, I wouldn’t have much trouble getting something done myself. I got some really good work done in the yard this afternoon by convincing her to work in the yard with me. I know that if she were just going too be sitting inside doing nothing or watching TV, i would have had a very hard time motivating myself to get any of it done.

I realize that this is a major psychological problem that could prevent me from getting a lot of worthwhile work done as my life goes on, but … I’ve always believed that it was a part of my empathy. That I’m in tune with the people around me. So that if there are people around getting things done, I’m automatically on the same wavelength and want to get similar things done. It is easy for me to do yardwork if someone else is doing yardwork at the same time. It is easy for me to clean up around the house if someone else is cleaning up around the house. It is easy for me to br creative and get a lot of work done on writing or painting or drawing or whatever else if someone else is doing something creative as well. If the only person or persons around are vegging out, their inertia gets to me. Until they reach deep sleep.

When everyone in my viscinity is sleeping, really deeply sleeping, I have no more trouble self-motivating than if I were alone. Perhaps even have an easier time doing all things creative, being in tune with nearby people’s dreaming minds. So, when I am alone, or when everyone is asleep, I am up to my own mind about what to do, and at all other times I must go with the flow or try to redirect other people’s flow to match what I need to get done.

Obligations and repurcussions

I’ve just realised (actually about 15 minutes ago) that I forgot to go in and pay my rent the other day. I don’t recall if there is supposed to be a fee or a problem or an evicion or whatever for being a couple of days late, but i DO know that they often don’t bother processing the checks until the 7th or 11th of the month anyway (making my checkbook balances look unreliably weird for a week or so at the beginning of every month), so perhaps it will not be an issue. Then again, maybe their lateness is somehow related to waiting until the last check comes in from their renters. Or since the people I gave the check to are a management company, maybe they sign it over to the actual owner and that takes time, or … I don;t know what, but I’m going to their office today, straight after work, to pay rent and whatever fees they instruct me to pay.

Sometimes I hate being absent-minded. I guess I’ve just gotten too used to having everything coming automatically out of my account every month (Gas, Electric, water, cable, phone, and one of my loans all deduct automatically on their due dates. All I have to do is have the money in the account). I’ll try to do better next time. Heck, if I can get this Apple Loan paid off on time, I’ll be able to maybe get a month ahead on my rent. (Unless they raise it when the lease is up in a couple of months.)

I’ll comment on this later when I find out what happens. I called them, but just got VM & left a message apologizing and informing of my plan. Hopefully everything will go smoothly.