Humor me

I’ve felt it for a while, now, and I admit that I kinda knew that I should be expecting it, but it always seems to throw me off. Love is just different for me, I think. More whelming, more permanent. Never reducing; either unchanging or growing. Glowing.

It isn’t fair for me to claim to understand how other people love. I really have no way of knowing exactly how they love. What love means to them, how it feels, how it pushes them. I can know how it is in me, and I can listen to what they say and do and try to understand (not with my head, but with my heart) what love means when it invades their lives. I cannot know their love.

I can get a pretty good idea, though. I’m pretty familiar with love in its many permutations. I’ve done quite a bit of reading on the subject by experts, and by amateurs, and I’ve got a lot of hands-on experience and heard many first-hand accounts of love. Because Love is important to me. Because I want to get it right.

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I didn’t find any Banana Bread

I did get to spend some time with Sara, though. That was nice.

Sometimes I think it would have been nice to spend some time with her over the course of the last four years.

I believe that it is not my specific actions that I regret as much as my attitude and disposition over the years.

My regret is overshadowed by my hope. I know there is a giant, unknown future laid out ahead of me, and I have hope for it.

No amount of considering and reconsidering the past will change it. Only actions and decisions made in the present can change things.

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