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Ooh, but goals. Today? Lunch. What shall I go eat for lunch? This week is “Teel doesn’t bring a lunch from home” week, I think.

Bigger goals? Loosely related to years, but mostly because they’re big goals. So, like, I have these multi-tiered, interworking and inter-dependent goals … like … let me see if I can write one down:

In 2005 I shall get a literary agent to represent my work to “real” publishers.

UNLESS I can get a substantial volume of book sales through the internet and face-to-face sales through other means such that it represents enough money to “get by”.

With the following other conditional layers:

I will do my best to get an agent to represent me, preferably within the next six months.

I will not submit my books to publishers myself – most do not take unagented work, and those that do often will not work with an agented author whose work they have already seen.

If I get to 10 finished books before I have a signed publishing contract with an established publisher, I shall simply form a new publishing company/imprint – this is complicated but not actually difficult. ((So, establish an appropriate company/LLC/whatever (I’ll research what is most appropriate), buy ISBNs, contract work with a printer/bindary, and negotiate with one or both of the two major distributors, then it’s just a matter of getting book stores everywhere to carry the books, right? Hah! At that point, that will seem easy. I’ll surely have already spoken to the owners of other small press publishers by then about how they do it, and yadda yadda yadda, I hope it doesn’t come to that. I don’t want to run a business – I want to write books.))

Actual writing and book-creating-related goals to follow:

Untrue Tales From Beyond Fiction (UTFBF) minimums:

UTFBF Book Two, Pre-Release Edition (PRE), in print by Feb 28th.

UTFBF Book Three, PRE, in print before June.

UTFBF Book Four, PRE, in print before September.

“First Edition” UTFBF Books 1-3, before NaNo2005.

Also before NaNo2005:
Write a universal “About the Author” for all Modern Evil Press (MEP) books, do another pass at copyediting all MEP books, try to get an afterword for tVC, update all source files for books online.

Make all MEP books available in easy to get to, easy to read “e-books” with the same contents as the print books.

Select appropriate excerpts from each MEP book, make excerpts and descriptions just as easily accessible online as the books and e-books.

Design uniform cover elements for use across all MEP titles, perhaps including a standard font for my name, a mini-bio with photo, and the ME logo on the back and the spine both, plus an appropriate space for future ISBN/barcode.

Look into what whole Library of Congress thing, see what that’s about.

Also, something I’m thinking about doing once I have a more satisfactory public face (ie: easily accessible author bio, novel excerpts, e-books, et cetera on the website) is order a BIG order of my books and send them all over with a “Press Kit” that explains the new publishing paradigm my books are available through, see if I can generate interest online that way. Even a bad review is good if it gets people to look at the website, maybe tell a friend. Is it possible to turn myself into a meme?

And now i’m babbling, because my blood sugar is low. Lunch in 30.

The human vocabulary is woefully unable to express love, one human to another.

I know what I am experiencing, but is there a way to get another being to know that experience?

Likewise, I have been so … engaged lately that I haven’t been able to find the time for some things I ought to have done. Like clean this desk to find new hair-ties, probably buried in here somewhere. Or shower, so I don’t feel like my hair needs to be tied up all the time.

But I have only a couple more minutes before I need to be out the door for work, so I’m going to go brush my teeth, take a relora, and go, go, go.

I have all day to simultaneously experience anticipation and to be ready for opportunity not to strike and the need for patience to flare up.

Here is the deal I make with myself: Tonight, if bus, shower early.

Is a conundrum a conundrum if you know the answer, but just don’t want to face it, so keep searching for an alternate answer? Or is it just foolishness?

It is a new year. Not that that has any special meaning, really. There is another calendar I use on which the new year began on Christmas Day. Welcome to Year Two.

How will these new years go? What color will my course of action be? Does that question have meaning? I started wearing my ring again yesterday. I shall have to think about what that means too, I suppose. When did I stop wearing it?

I’m out of time. And I didn’t get anything in place this weekend to allow me to post from work, so … I may write a thing or three while there, but it can’t appear until … well, until I get to the Willow House at the earliest. 7:30PM, I suppose.

Anyway, time to head to work.

Have I managed to say nothing at all yet?

Such a long day ahead of me. It’s only 2:00PM.  I work until 7PM.

I think I need another Relora.  More pain relievers.

Maybe I need to switch to something stronger than Ibuprofen to escape all this… like .. a morphine overdose.

I’m sore in more ways than my body knows how to express.

I managed to get through the entire day yesterday without pain killers or stress reducers or depressants … well, save chocolate.

Today is not so nice to me.

I wonder how I can get my hands on some of that fresh Afghani opium I keep hearing about in lists of things Bush didn’t do right.

My life is not so nice to me.  I won’t talk about most of it, out of courtesy to those involved, but I will talk about some of it here.

I’ve been finally, for the first time, reading about how one goes from author to published author, and it is disheartening and encouraging at the same time – but mostly disheartening.  Definitely need an agent.  I already knew that.  It was part of why I went the self-publishing route, though that is a complex conversation in itself.  Been reading about how to get a good agent, how to apply to agents and agencies at all, and … this is part of the problem.

Most everything I’ve read assumes I’ve got just the one book I’m trying to shop around, and frames how to try to get an agent around trying to find the person to sell that one book.  What I really want to sell is myself as a product; I write books, and since I had my first book self-published roughly 14 months ago I’ve put out three more, and have embarked on an ongoing series with my latest.  I doubt I’ll find a guide that tells me how to express that to an agent in a way that comes across reasonably.

Worse than that, all these guides think I should know what my book is about and – they emphasize this more, and it is more of a problem – what books/authors on the market are similar to my book.  And to be able to select agents based on their having represented similar work before.  And to be able to express what my book is about in a sentence, two max.

And I don’t know how to do that.

Do you?  Have you read my book(s), and know how to sell them (sell me as an author) in one or two sentences?  Let me try:

Lost and Not Found details one man’s journey all the way from being laid off from his mundane corporate job to becoming the author he truly dreams to be by following his attempt to write his first novel within the challenging timeframe of only four weeks.  As his story unfolds we get to read what he is writing and can see the relationship between the author and his work unfold until his life literally unfolds around him.

Dragons’ Truth is not just the coming-of-age story of a boy who meets a dragon and the way the dragon’s teachings change his life, but also represents a sort of allegory about some of the problems with the separation of the common man from higher education and the world of academia.  It is suitable for young readers as well as adults.

Untrue Tales From Beyond Fiction – Book One is an introduction to a series of books that take place in a world where magic and psychic-like powers exist but are overlooked by most people, and centers on a teenage boy of remarkable magical and mental powers as he is introduced to a world that had been hidden from him his entire life by ignorance.  This series is not intended for younger readers, and Book One alone details issues such as the boy’s burgeoning sexuality, a teenage pregnancy and attempted abortion, a violent and potentially deadly magical attack, and a mysterious kidnapping.

How’s that sound?  Am I getting worked up over nothing?  Are these descriptions too ‘salesy’?  Too long?  Too brief?  Too vague?  Too specific?  Should I mention that LaNF ‘contains some fantasy elements’, or would that pigeonhole it?  Should I use Larry and Trevor’s names in the descriptions of the books they’re in?  Am I finally getting better and describing my books?  And once I get past this step, how long until I stop worrying about being able to sell my work?

Because here’s another problem:  My books are already published, sortof.  I mean, obviously, you can order them online as e-books or as paperbacks, and I’ve sold (some to myself, to gift) dozens of copies of my books in paperback to people in person.  And I don’t have the distribution channels or armies of sales reps or a publicist (or a budget) to get my ‘published’ books into the market the way traditional publishers do, and that’s a lot of the point of pursuing a traditional publishing route; to get the books out where people can buy them so I can make some money so I can write full time.

But how do I position them to agents, and how do they position them to editors?  Can I just give them finished, bound copies of the books along with a letter explaining what I’ve already begun, and that I’m definitely open to further revisions?  My guides so far all suggest sending queries and pages via FedEx or equivalent, so if I’m spending that much just to get a letter to them, the extra cost of a paperback book versus a few printed pages is absorbable.  And would it create a problem, or make me stand out better?  I obviously don’t want to send out a free book with every query letter, but for agents I was seriously interested in, the benefit of winning the agent is far, far greater than the cost of the book and the shipping.  And perhaps by explaining the POD status of my books and offering a free copy of the title of his or her choice in my query that will be handled reasonably, eh?

I said there was something encouraging too, didn’t I?  I wonder what it was.  Maybe that I’ve gotten farther than most by actually finishing more than one book, by actually doing reasonable copyediting already, by being a different sort of person than the authors the editors and agents and publicists and such are writing about having to deal with in important ways like having patience and understanding that I’m not the only author they’re working with and that it’s all about making money.  Once I get in, the publishing industry should love working with me.  Convincing someone that my books will make money…  Hmmm…

I suppose I’m calmer now than I was at the start.  I’ve been working on this between working (our database is running extra-slow today) for almost three hours now, I should be.  The pain relievers weren’t working after the first hour so I took more, and that seemed to help.  I should probably have taken more Relora, too.  Anyway, I’m going to keep researching getting published, and very soon I’m going to start making a long list of agents I’d like to represent my work, so that I can start applying to them.  Maybe no Gamecube in January – maybe my money will be going to sending out queries.

Is it wrong to ask for feedback on a part of a novel I haven’t written yet?

Not a problem of second-guessing, but of wanting to get it right the first time – it is a “delicate” scene, and the action of this book hinges on the “action” of this scene, and I believe that people’s perceptions of the book overall will hinge on how they mentally digest this scene.

Or maybe I don’t know what I’m talking about.  I barely know what my books are “about” when they’re finished, how am I to know what they’re about before they become formed?

This novel is actually quite an accomplishment for me to be writing at all (and I hope saying this doesn’t jinx or otherwise stifle me) in that I already know how it ends.  I have seen the scene that closes the book very vividly in my mind.  It’s the sort of imagery that once it enters my mind does not leave again, the sort of intensity of visual that, were it applied to a horrific scene in a horror movie in half a dozen frames of film (a quarter of a second or so) could turn people’s stomachs.  And I know some of who is there, so I can see that I must in the intervening words, ensure that they arrive at that scene.  And I know some of the things that happen in between.

And in the past, knowing even this little about a story I wanted to write might have prevented words from leaking out of my mind beyond an outline or a few notecards covered in descriptions of characters and settings and story arcs and relationships and … and then the novel never comes.  But here I am, writing it.

And I know I’ve been telling people for weeks now that “the next scene is a long sex scene” and haven’t managed to write the 2-3k words that transition into it yet – though I’m most of the way there, now that I’m getting my momentum back.  But I’m fighting it, and I’m getting to the scene, and intensely erotic fiction… my mind is specially attuned to that, I think.

But yes, I’ve petitioned the community for feedback – check the NaNoWriMo Arizona-Phoenix Regional Forum if you want to try to help – because knowing my mind the sex scene would go off in a completely strange direction that “normal” people would have trouble identifying with.  If it does, so be it, but with people’s feedback, at least I can get some stuff they do identify with in there, too.

I should be working.  Back to work.

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