Author: Teel

I’m adding Happy Accidents to the list of movies that make me cry every single time I watch it, no matter what, and if you’ve seen it, it’s obvious, and if you haven’t, you should.

I had never gotten to see it, for years and years, and then I netflix’d it a couple of months ago and knew I needed to own it, and happy day, they had it used at Zia on Friday night and I bought it. I just watched it, and my eyes are still wet and I kinda want to watch it again.

But I think I’ll put something else in for now. Maybe something that will make me laugh instead of cry. The internet tells me that laughter can cause a release of Beta endorphins, which can reduce pain. Maybe if the movie is funny enough I can work on screwing up GWB’s head some more.

And no, I’m not going to church this week, and I didn’t go last week, and I know I’m just writing this sentence to try to guilt-trip myself into going, but I don’t feel like it right now, so I’m not going. That doesn’t make me a bad Christian, it just means I’m not feeling well right now.

The simple version I gave on discussion earlier tonight regarding my progress and pain on and from my GWB piece (to remind you, I am at a stage where I take a very small screwdriver and drive thousands of very small screws into a relatively very large piece of wood):

I haven’t been working a little bit on putting screws in, say, 25 every night all week which would make steady progress without tearing up my hands, because I’ve been depressed and unable to get anything done.

I spent the last two days (off and on, but day and night) working on driving hundreds of screws and tearing up my hands (imagine blisters on blisters under the not-quite-yet-healed blisters from last weekend) because I am depressed.

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I watched Easy Rider last night. It joins an increasingly long list of movies I’ve been getting through Netflix because they’re ‘classics’ or ‘great’ or ‘groundbreaking’ movies which just disappoint me. Movies which I find unimpressive and uninteresting and which do not grab or hold my interest. I’ll have to go home and look at the list of movies I’ve watched to give you a full recounting, but the list includes Easy Rider, Deliverance, Miller’s Crossing, Deer Hunter, Apocalypse Now, A Few Good Men, and uhhh… a couple others which were apparently so un-memorable that I’ve forgotten watching them.

I can’t wait until I start going even further back in time to see movies from James Dean and Elvis, then further back to movies like Casablanca and Breakfast at Tiffany’s… I’m guessing that it just gets worse the more ‘classic’ a movie is. Well… I’ve seen Citizen Kane once or twice and I didn’t hate that, but … I have yet to see why so many people consider it the best movie ever.

Ooh! And Netflix just got copies of Godfather II in, finally, so I’ll bump that trilogy towards the top of my Queue soon – I’ve never seen those. I always try to have high expectations for these movies, I don’t want them to suck. But then they do.

I got to the end of Easy Rider and they just died all of a sudden and … nothing had happened the entire movie, there was no point at all, it was a complete waste of my time and … well, if it hadn’t made them a lot of money and fame, I’d say it was a waste of the film crew’s time, too. I watched the little making-of video they put on the DVD, and I could see that they obviously had a good time making it, but man… I just can’t see why it became a phenomenon. If it were made today it would be lucky to get diistribution at all, and then would be killed by word of mouth. Terrance Malick (sp?) makes more engaging films!

Anyway, I ought to be working.

Update: Looking at my NetFlix history, additional movies which disappointed: Rain Man, Glengarry Glen Ross, Far and Away, Network, and … and … I had to put in an email request for my full history, and it wasn’t instant. Sigh.

Last week the lightning from a storm set fire to my neighborhood.

Tonight the storm downed several trees in the area and broke a large branch off the tree in our front yard and tore one of the sheds in our yard free from the ground and tore it up and whipped a sheet or two of the as-yet-unstuccoed styrofoam insulation from the side of the house and knocked out power to the entire neighborhood for … well, estimates around 6 hours, or until around 12:30AM.

Now it’s possible I missed a sand-storm, but I figure if I missed it it wasn’t catastrophic enough. So we should have sand or stones or “earth” otherwise attacking the neighborhood soon, and flooding. Fire and Air have already attacked.

Hopefully after that there’ll be catastrophic love in the neighborhood. That … that is a mess I don’t mind cleaning up after.