Silly Questionnaire

This is from Pretty Pistol, but it seemed like an awfully long comment to leave, so it’s a post, with my answers:

First job: Prints Plus, unless you count helping my dad deliver newspapers
First screen name: Gonzo
First kiss: No idea; my sense of time and propriety hasn’t always been very good
First self purchased CD: I don’t remember what I bought first, but my first CD was R.E.M.’s Automatic for the People, and well before I had a CD player
First funeral: My mother’s mother, I believe
First piercing/tattoo: None for me, thanks
First credit card: Desert Schools FCU Visa, still in my wallet
First true love: Must be Melissa Kress, though again, I’m not so good with timelines
First big trip: That I remember well? Probably San Francisco, Fall ’98
First concert: Woodstock ’99
First musician you remember hearing in your house: uhh… huh?

Last big car ride: Not counting coming home to Pine, it must be Vegas
Last kiss: I don’t think I’ve kissed anyone in 2003, have I? Hmmm… I think I may have kissed Jen back in 2001… Wait, wait, I remember, there was a kiss or two with Melissa Richardson this summer… Yeah, that must be it.
Last library book checked out: I just renewed Prelude to Foundation today
Last movie seen: Four Weddings and a Funeral
Last beverage drank: Crystal Light Peach Tea
Last food consumed: White Fudge covered Oreo cookie
Last phone call: Grandpa needed one of his doctors’ phone numbers…
Last CD played: an actual CD? The Polyphonic Spree, I guess, though I’m listening to a mix of some thousands of songs on my iMac…
Last annoyance: Spending the last week in Phoenix and not seeing any of my friends
Last soda drank: Had some Diet Mountain Dew yesterday morning
Last ice cream eaten: Double Chocolate with Crunch bar, Brownie and Fudge
Last time scolded: I try to put things like that out of my mind ASAP
Last shirt worn: the red Realink shirt I’m wearing now, you mean?
Last website visited: I am currently (in other tabs) at Modern Evil, Pretty Pistol, Project Mouse, imdb, and LiquidMercurial, though I have been to several others as I have been working on this.

I am… cold
I want… love, companionship
I have… a messy room
I wish… my love were reciprocated
I hate… questionnaires like this
I fear… becoming the worst version of myself
I hear… music, a fan, my own sniffling
I search… for Amanda
I wonder… where she disappeared to
I regret… the mistakes I made
I love… and love, and love, and love, and am alone
I ache…
I always… seem to end up feeling this way
I am not… sure what to do about it
I dance… alone, dreaming of a partner
I sing… a lot when I am alone, and some regardless
I cry… myself to sleep
I am not always… sure why I should go on living
I write… and write, and write, but what’s the point?
I win… No. No, I don’t win.
I loose… loves, ideas, money, my footing…
I confuse… even myself sometimes
I get confused by… the twists of my own life
I need… love, returned

YES or NO:
Do you keep a diary: just this
Do you like to cook: yes
Have you a secret you haven’t shared with anyone else: no

Have a girlfriend: no
Want to get married: someday
Get motion sickness: sometimes if I’ve been in the water all day, I get land-sickness… does that count?
Think you’re a health freak: no
Get along with your parents: yes
Like thunderstorms: yes

Number: hmmmm…. Pi, or the square root of negative one…
Colour: Yellow, then a particular purple-like hue
Day: tomorrow, yesterday, Thursday, today (in that order)
Month: September
Songs: Needle In the Hay, Suede, E-Bow the Letter
Season: Salt
Drink: water

Cuddle or make out: Man Oh Man, would I take either right now
Chocolate milk or hot chocolate: Chocolate Milk
Milk, dark or white chocolate: dark
Vanilla or chocolate: chocolate

Cried? no
Helped someone? yes
Bought something? no
Gone to the movies? no
Gone out to eat? no
Said ‘i love you’? not to anything but the empty room and a memory
Written a love letter: no
Talked to an ex? no
Missed an ex? yes
Written in a journal? yes, if this counts
Had a serious talk? yes
Missed someone? inevitably
Hugged someone? no
Fought with your parents? no
Fought with a friend? no

1. Eat a bug? Depends on the circumstances, but yes
2. Bungee jump? sure
4. Kill someone? why not?
5. Kiss someone of the same sex? yes
6. Have sex with someone of the same sex? sure
7. Parachute from a plane? yes
8. Walk on hot coals? if it was done right
9. Go out with someone for their looks? no
11. Be a vegetarian? Sure, it worked okay last time…
12. Wear plaid with stripes? yep
13. IM a stranger? yes
14. Sing Karaoke? maybe
15. Get drunk off your Ass? hard to say
16. Shoplift? no
17. Run a red light? on foot or on my bike, but not in a car
18. Star in a porn video? only if they get desparate
19. Dye your hair blue? done it before, might do it again
20. Be on Survivor? why not?
21. Wear makeup in public? yes
22. Cheat on a test? what, like a blood test?
23. Make someone cry? Not on purpose, but almost inevitably, yes
24. Date someone more than 10 years older than you? yes
25. Stay up all night? yes

I guess that’s that.

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