Maybe there’ll be a little more later, but … probably I’ll go to sleep. Depends on what/whether I decide to have soda with my movie. See, I’ve got the next … thirty minutes or so to write here, then I think I’ll walk down to the local theatre and watch a sequel to a movie I’ve never seen. I made the determination about which movie to watch based on running time more than anything; I also want to see Johnny English, but Bad Boys II is nearly twice as long for the same $6.50 ($7.50 if I get that drink). There are screenings of Seabiscuit Tuesday and Tomb Raider 2 Wednesday nights at Fashion Square, but while I would perfer not to have to pay to see either movie, I find myself without available transportation to either screening. I will be in town until Thursday morning though, so if anyone is free and wouldn’t mind getting me from North Phoenix (around 32nd St. & Bell) to Fashion Square to see a free movie, give me a call. If you don’t have my new number, email me: firstname.lastname@example.org.
Okay, so. I got home from Comic-con last night. Had a good time, overall, I’d say. There were some disappointments here and there, but the bulk of the good stuff I was expecting was there and there were not too many temporal conflicts. I’m thinking of getting a booth for Modern Evil (and Darwin’s Complex, if they’re interested) for Comic-con 2005. The next 12 months to raise the money, and if we pay at next year’s con for a 2005 booth, we save big. Plus, that will give me two years to have some sort of concrete content to offer and promote. Obviously I’ll have the novel done by then, and the ‘Mouse’ Project will be done within a month or two of now… I’m hoping to have some significant work done on the much larger and more complex collaborative comic I’m working on by then, too. Plus, I’d love to have made at least one (if not several) short films by then.
That last dream is dependent on a certain level of income. I’m hoping that my art continues to sell. If I am able to sell a couple thousand dollars worth of paintings, I can buy equipment like a DV camera and some sound equipment to get started. I have access to space in Pine that I could theoretically use as a ‘sound stage’ of sorts, with enough hard work. Such dreams I have. I made some contacts with more independent filmakers at the con, and learned more about the entire process; something I am trying my best to do as often as I can. We’ll see what I can get together.
Things like this convention always seem to show me a side of things that I like to pretend isn’t there; my lack of passion. Actually, that’s not quite right – I have passion, but not the way so many other people do. There are people who know from early in life what they are passionate about, comics-making, movie-making, writing, whatever, and from that moment forward it is their passion. It is what they dream about doing, it is their hobby, it is what they do with their spare time and spare money, and it is what they become an expert at. Some of them succeed, more of them fail, but they are passionate about it. See, and I don’t have that.
I like to paint, I like to write, I like making comics, I’d like to make films, I like programming computers, I’d like to compose music… so many things… no one is king, no one is my real passion. I try to work on all of them, and they all suffer. I am expert at none of them yet, and may never be.
And I just got distracted talking to my brother for fifteen minutes, so this is it. I’m leaving. I’ll think about coming back later. I’ll also think about a comic and a movie and a song and a book I want to write. Mnyeargh.