Back home. Around 100 miles further from most of my friends, but 100 miles closer to the one I want most to say hello to. She’s still around 1600 miles away by car. I have not driven 1600 miles total in my life, but I seem to have driven her away faster than I could have ended up by her side. I want to try again, to start again after this false stop, not to start over, but not to stand still. I want to talk to her. Something’s gone wrong, my mind clouded with her, and through the fog of my own thoughts and emotions I can’t even see the face of the cliff I was sure I was falling from, or the point where I stepped off. “That’s What I Get” by Nine Inch Nails just started playing not-exactly-randomly on my computer and the lyrics hit home, and I almost started copying them into an email to Canada. Man. Where am I?
I probably shouldn’t even be saying this much. I probably shouldn’t upload that volley. None of this means as much as you think it means, if you think it means much. Ask.
You think of me a lot. That’s cool.
I think of you, too, but at the same time it’s like through this veil of protection, because I know if I think too much, I’ll be opening myself to a whole new world of pain and hurt and regret and … I think you know what I mean. You don’t seem to have that veil, and I respect you for it, but I’m just used to being hurt so I have to live this way.
Does that make sense? It really came out more dramatic than intended.
You think of me a lot. That’s cool.
I think of you, too, but at the same time it’s like through this veil of protection, because I know if I think too much, I’ll be opening myself to a whole new world of pain and hurt and regret and … I think you know what I mean. You don’t seem to have that veil, and I respect you for it, but I’m just used to being hurt so I have to live this way.
Does that make sense? It really came out more dramatic than intended.
Dani, this is how i felt and told you, and you called me melodramatic. Funny how two different people tell you the same and you give two different responses. Just reinforces my new found realization of the lies you tell everyone.
Dani, this is how i felt and told you, and you called me melodramatic. Funny how two different people tell you the same and you give two different responses. Just reinforces my new found realization of the lies you tell everyone.
Dani, this is how i felt and told you, and you called me melodramatic. Funny how two different people tell you the same and you give two different responses. Just reinforces my new found realization of the lies you tell everyone.
Dani, this is how i felt and told you, and you called me melodramatic. Funny how two different people tell you the same and you give two different responses. Just reinforces my new found realization of the lies you tell everyone.
I don’t lie. If I say something, it was true to me when I said it. 🙁
I don’t lie. If I say something, it was true to me when I said it. 🙁
Yeah when you said it, seems you say things to poeple alot, and then the next day they change drasticly.
Yeah when you said it, seems you say things to poeple alot, and then the next day they change drasticly.