Someone still reads this. Someone out there reads this. They read it and they keep coming back and reading it and sometimes they even respond, sometimes they even contact me and let me know how my words have related to them. It feels weird.
Weird because it feels weird when I know something is true and I say it is true, and then it really is and I see I was right about the truth… it just feels weird.
Is it because so many others just have no faith that seeing my own faith ring true makes reality itself seem ingenuine?
I’m so tired. My eyes want to close. I am watching “Timecode” instead. I tried to see it in a theatre, but despite seeing trailers and advertisements for it in local theatres, it never played in the valley. I could not justify buying it, and I still won’t be considering that. I pay so much to watch movies on cable every month that I could not justify renting something. So, it has come on, and I have been watching it. And it is way past my bedtime. And I want to see how this works out, and I’m going to be tired at work tomorrow either way at this point, so no use in missing the last ten or fifteen minutes, right?
Maybe Chocolate ice cream will make me feel better. maybe cheese. maybe eating and eating and eating is the answer to all my problems. maybe sleeping all the time will make the other hours feel better. maybe distracting myself with movie after movie and huge, complex games will make me feel better. maybe maybe maybe maybe maybe.