Cheating, Death – chapters 8 & 9

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Chapter 8 took me a long time.  Writing it involved a lot of procrastination.  I first sat down to write it at least an hour before midnight, Sept. 29/30 – and immediately spent an hour and a half re-writing the end of chapter 7.  (If you read the version that’s been on Smashwords since 9/29, which ends with Chapter 7, be sure you re-read the end of 7; I turned 2 paragraphs into a 900-word vignette.)  Then I stopped for food, watched a movie, and otherwise procrastinated & stalled, writing only ~600 words in the next 6 hours.  By 10PM on the 30th, having had only 3 hours of sleep, I’d read dozens of articles about Google Wave, started a blog post on Self Publishing, posted an episode of the Modern Evil Podcast, and only managed to get about 1500 words of chapter 8 written.  Then stayed up until almost 3AM on the 1st, adding only a couple of paragraphs in the next 5 hours.

Why was I procrastinating so much?  In a tweet I put it this way: “It feels like I’ve been avoiding an actual argument with someone I care about, rather than an argument between 2 of my characters in a book.” – If that’s not clear, I’m saying that I had become emotionally involved with the characters in my book, and I was avoiding writing the argument in a way similar to how one might attempt to avoid an argument they knew was coming with someone they care about in their real life.  But the argument was important.  I’m not sure I’ve got it right, either; I’ve been avoiding re-reading it in the same way I was avoiding writing it.

October 2nd I didn’t get any writing done.  I tried a couple of times, wrote a sentence or two at most, but it was a struggle.  And then it was the Art Walk, downtown.  And then it was the weekend (spending time with my wife seems to supplant getting work done – I realized recently that this probably represents an unconscious but real prioritization where my wife & my marriage are more important to me than my work/art/writing, which seems like a reasonable prioritization), and then… well, then last night I woke up at 11PM and … after checking my emails and eating breakfast and a watching an episode of Dexter, at around 3AM I was ready to get to work.  Monday morning, as it were.  In about an hour and a half, I wrote the final ~750 words of chapter 8, and updated it on Smashwords.

Ouch, that was a long one.  One hour shy of six days between updates, after having taken only five and a half days to write the first 7 chapters (over half of the book!).  Then, I spent the rest of today writing chapter 9.  Twelve hours is a lot better than six days, though it’s nowhere near as fast as I wrote the first half of the book.  There was plenty of stopping to think instead of writing right through.  It was a struggle.  It even required a change of venue (I wrote the 2nd half of chapter 9 at the library).

But Stacy is back in the picture for a while, now.  It’s a lot easier to write when there’s more than one living person present in the scene.  Heck, even one living person and some specific zombies is easier to write than one person and a nonspecific zombie infestation they’re effectively avoiding significant contact with.  I’m trying to keep this book from getting to be too introspective.  I mean, it’s still introspeculative fiction, but leaning toward action and somewhat away from contemplation.  With Stacy in all the remaining chapters (in one way or another), I’m thinking they’ll flow somewhat smoother.

If sleep goes okay tonight and I’m able to concentrate tomorrow, I should be able to finish at least chapters 10 & 11.  Maybe more, if I’m really on a roll.  Still on track for 13 chapters. Maybe I’ll hit the end of the first draft by Wednesday afternoon.  That would be nice.  If you haven’t started reading, yet, the first four chapters are still free, or you can buy access to the full text (including all future updates and the final eBook edition), currently priced at $2.99.  Remember, the price you pay is all you need to pay, so the sooner you buy in, the better for you.  Feel free to wait & buy the paperback from me, currently estimated to be ~$10. 😉

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Cheating, Death – chapters 6 & 7

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Whew, that was a hard one.  Well, a hard two, I suppose.  I kept having to stop writing, take a break, and try to remember how it happened.  I wanted to get it just right, get things in the right order.  Causes, effects, surprises, and zombies, all in the right sequence.  I had to re-jigger my outline a tiny bit.  I even shifted one of the chapter-opening vignettes from chapter 6 to chapter 7, and wrote a fresh one for chapter 6, because of how the story was unfolding & lining up.

The major event of chapter 7 is still the same; the book still has the same chewy emotional center, right in the middle of the book.  The next 6 chapters, they’re all downhill.  And if you’ve been reading what’s in the first 7, that’s pretty bad news.  I mean….  Well, what do I mean?  let me excerpt a couple paragraphs for you (Yes, this contains spoilers, but it’s a zombie book; you knew everyone was going to die, right?), from chapter 7:

Even in the dark, he could see it was too late. In the low light, the scene was like something out of an old black and white movie, Madeline’s blood dark like chocolate syrup or motor oil as it gushed from her neck. Whether she hadn’t heard it approaching or had been too afraid to get out of the cart and run, Madeline had still been sitting there hugging the number ten can of peaches to her chest when the undead monster had torn her throat out with its teeth. As the zombie languorously munched away at Madeline’s soft flesh, her blood gushed out in an unbelievable torrent of darkness that consumed her clothes, the peaches, and which seemed to be opening a dark portal in the floor under the cart.

Melvin took in all this in an instant, and in another instant he was shoving the zombie one way and pulling the cart another. Without a thought, Melvin discovered that he was perched over the laid-out body of the monster, repeatedly bringing the heavy can of cling peaches in heavy syrup down onto the remains of its long-since ruptured skull, smashing it again and again into smaller and smaller chunks. Frances didn’t stop him, she simply stood by the blood-soaked body of her last living child, too shocked to shed tears and too grief-stricken not to weep. After what seemed like a long time, Melvin’s arms stopped moving, and Frances caught her breath. Then Madeline’s mutilated form began moving, and Frances’ breath caught in her throat.

Yeah.  Fun.  It’s all downhill from here.  Things falling apart, as it were.  I think I’ve got the sample % right so that the first 4 chapters are still free.

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Cheating, Death – chapter 5

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Chapter 5 took me a little longer to write than the others.  This has something to do with the weekend; I actually took some time off to play Beatles Rock Band (my birthday gift) and to spend time with my wife.  It also has something to do with money.  F_cking money.

There’s a bit of a story about this story, you see.  I’ve been thinking about writing this book for quite some time.  At some point, many moons ago, I realized what the story was, and who it was about.  I wrote a quick pseudo-outline of the basic story… well, actually I just made some notes about it in the mind-mapping software I’ve been using on my iPhone (Headspace – worth a look; I went from the free version to the paid version, its icon moved to my first page and, this week, to my ‘dock’ – I use it that much), but the character arcs were all there.  Then I spent several months reading popular modern zombie fiction, as ‘research’.  Now I’m actually writing the thing.

After a few relatively easy-to-write chapters, I started looking forward.  Wondering what the next chapter was supposed to encompass.  Thinking about length.  How long a book did I want, how many chapters (at their current, relatively stable, length) would I need for that, and so on.  And it occurred to me this weekend that … the story I have to tell isn’t of traditional “book length.”  Not without a lot of padding and filler and … and I don’t know what.  Actually, going by my outline, my mind map, my initial notes, if I’d just written the rest of it without thinking about structure at all, it’d probably be over in twenty thousand words.  And I’d probably have missed some of the story.  And it would be almost unpublishable as anything but the eBook it already is.

I stressed out, for a while, thinking about money, about what length book people expect, and how writing a shorter book would impact sales.  About how if the book were short enough, maybe I could price it at $10 and I could make a lot more impulse sales than I do at $13 and $14.  About my current trade discount of 50%, which effectively sets my cover price for me, and is based on the idea of being palatable to book stores.  About giving up on the ridiculous idea that book stores will ever stock my books, about reducing the trade discount to 20%-30%, which will keep it listed online at Amazon/bn.com & give me more pricing flexibility (& potentially more profit per copy sold).  About rethinking the premises on which I make decisions for my publishing company, looking at what my current realities are, and looking to the future & potential of storytelling in all its forms.

Then, finally, I ended up where I’d started.  Which is that I run my own publishing company so that I can write the books I want to write, the way I want to write them.  So that I can tell the stories I have in me to tell, in whatever way is best for each story, and then put it out there as though the industry has no business telling me how and how-not to be.  Because they don’t.  All they know is what’s made money for them recently.  Which isn’t the point, for me.  Realizing which, I spent some time working on writing a closer-to-proper outline (on paper, but moreso in Headspace) of the story the way it wants to be told and the way I want to present it.

I’m open to following Cheating, Death wherever it takes me, so if things here or there go longer along the way, so be it.  But with the basic structure of the story laid out, it looks like 13 chapters total.  With the average chapter length I’ve been finding so far, it looks like about 33k words total.  The paper book for a story that long will probably be around 124pp, which I can sell for $10.  (I have 2 poetry collections available that are this size, already.)  Which makes the final (estimated) eBook price $4.99, the current eBook price $0.99, with an expected $0.50 increase with each additional chapter.  So go get Cheating, Death now for $0.99 and read it as I write it.  Or wait until it’s done, pay $4.99 for the eBook or $10 for the paperback.

Hmm… I think it’s early enough yet that I’ll try to write Chapter 6 before I go to bed.  I’m right in the heart of the emotional center of the book, right now.  This is Act II, chapters 5-8, where Melvin is confronted by his wife about his cheating, before things really start to go downhill.

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Cheating, Death – chapter 4

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Chatper 4 is the longest, yet, clocking in at over 3500 words.  (And without any zombies!)  If you’ve been reading along you’ve probably noticed that structurally I’m writing each chapter in two parts: First a brief scene someplace Melvin Spall (my main character) isn’t, then a longer scene featuring Melvin’s misadventures in the zombie outbreak – which relates directly to the other scene of the chapter.  With chapter 4, the initial scene is over a thousand words and, while it somewhat mirrors scenes we’ve already been through in the book (the family being woken in the early morning to evacuate), it also shows the danger of keeping secrets.  Secrets that, by the end of the chapter, end up putting a lot of people’s lives in danger.

I spent a lot of time working on this chapter (relatively), which is usually a sign that I’m forcing it rather than following the flow – and usually results in a lower quality of writing.  I would especially appreciate any feedback or criticism (preferably constructive) on chapter 4, for this reason.  Having worked so hard on it, I might not be able to see what’s wrong with it, right now.

Also, chapter 4 pushes the length of the book-so-far over 10k words (Smashwords estimates 10,853 words right now, though that includes the copyright page & foreward – Scrivener says it’s 10,295 words when I just select the contents of the chapters themselves), so while I’m currently leaving the eBook at “name your own price” on Smashwords, as soon as I (write and) upload chapter 5 I’ll bump it to $0.99.  I’ll try to get the sample% to still give you the first four full chapters, but from then on you’ll have to pay to read it as I finish it.  If you’ve downloaded a sample without signing up for a Smashwords account, now is the time to sign up.

Remember, once you’ve paid for it you don’t have to pay for it again, and you have access to all future updates.  Of course, I do welcome your money, so feel free to pay $100 rather than $0 when you “name your own price” at Smashwords:

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Cheating, Death – chapter 3

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What fun chapter 3 has been!  About 2400 words in a little under 3 hours, and most of it was rock’em sock’em zombie-pocalypse fun to write!  I mean, look at my last few tweets:

“12:30AM – time to start writing again, right? Have I mentioned I love my job & don’t want to lose it? Love, love, love being a creative.” – from about 12:30AM

“Chapter 3 starts out with a bang. 750+ words in 50 minutes isn’t bad, especially if it’s as fun a scene as that.” – from about 1:20AM

“I wonder if I can keep this up for the rest of the book. Another 50mins, another 850+ words of intense zombie awesomeness for Chapter 3.” – from about 2:10AM

And now it’s about 3:15AM and Chapter 3 is live on Smashwords.  Plus the whole thing is still free.  Don’t you want to see what I’m so excited about?

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