Category: Journal

Problems problem-solving

So, Myst III is … different. I was having trouble with the level I’m on, so I went online to look for some clues, and … well, it’s weird. Like, in previous Myst games, there were puzzles to solve, and you could access many puzzles at once, but couldn’t move on to the next set of puzzles until you solved a specific group of puzzles. In this one, you kinda just wander around and … interact with stuff. The puzzles seem less overtly like puzzles.

Like, I apparently went through the linking books in the wrong order, because I just happened to wander around a little differently… and then when I got stuck on a particular part of the world I’m still stuck on, it wasn’t that I didn’t understand the puzzle, it was the same thing that always gets in my way in these puzzles. Something small and obvious.

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Wanting to post

Last night I tried to get on here and post something new. I could not; Sprint Broadband’s service is not available in the Phoenix area right now. Went down last night in the evening, and still wasn’t up this morning. The same recording is playing that says that they’re working on it, but nothing has changed in 12 hrs. What could have gone so wrong? Did someone cut ALL their fiberoptic cables? Did someone blow up ALL their radio towers? How can such a thing happen?

Anyway, I’ll try to remember what I was going to say and say it later today. Right now, I’m going to go fiddle around with Modern Evil and see if I can’t make it even LESS appealing.

Mating and Relationships

What I feel like I’m about to write is probably going to involve subject matter of an adult nature. If you were in any way offended by the web address of the site you’re visiting, read no further. If you are in any way offended by subjects relating directly to or specific descriptions of my sexuality and sexual activities (past, present, future, and imagined), read no further. If you are my mother or father, you probably shouldn’t read on. (I can’t stop you, but you probably won’t like what you see, so I’m letting you know ahead of time.) If the idea that Teel even possesses sexual organs of his own baffles or disturbs you, read no further.

You have been warned. If you are still reading, it should be because you are comfortable with sexuality and sexual situations, and thinking critically about the nature of these things and how they relate to the rest of our lives and worlds. This is you last chance to get out. (Note: I can not ensure you that there will be any kind of explicit or adult material below. I haven’t written it yet. I just have been on that sort of train of thought, and I’m not planning on censoring myself, and I wanted to give you fair warning. If you’re looking for erotic literature, go someplace like http://www.asstr.org. If you’re interested in my take on my life as I see it today, read on.)

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Caffeine

I have come to a point in my thinking where I no longer know for sure whether the things that I quit doing are worth staying away from, and whether the things i have begun doing are worth continuing doing. Mostly because I cannot remember the reasons I decided to do/stop doing a lot of them. Some of them (like finding an appropriate, regular workout regimen to develop upper body strength and maintain a healthy body), I can remember the reasons for. Others seem more tricky.

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I am having an emotional response

So I’ve been following this AI-Movie-related web game/experience/marketing ploy for the last month or two, and it’s really quite interesting at times. One of the recent updates has basically been something like 100 snippets of emotional things in the lives of 20 of the main characters… Some of it is sounds, some images, but mostly text… brief excerpts from conversations or a few paragraphs describing a particular thing they remember… It is put together in a compelling and interesting and complex way that could not have been discovered without many people working at once (there are over 3000 people in the collective that i am a part of, deciphering the puzzles)…

As I read through these snapshots of emotion, some for characters I am very familiar with that just help fill in the details, some for characters that are new to me or that were just mentioned briefly before that reveal a great depth that has been put into developing the world in which this story takes place through its characters. I noticed a moment ago as I read about something that caused sadness in a woman who was very much involved in the abolition of AI “slavery” in the future, that I was having a strong emotional response. That I felt like I wasn’t doing enough to allow Artificial life the freedom to choose. It was almost enough to get me to stand up, walk out, and go do something about it.

Then, as these feeling swelled up in me, I realized what was going on as I stared at a work of fiction relayed to me by a stranger, and in an incredulous tone I said aloud “I am having an emotional response.”