My goal is to die broke, apparently.

It’s 4:22AM as I begin yet another post about money. Are you sick of reading about money, yet? Posts about how much money my business makes, each month, and how much product I’m giving away. Posts like the last one, about my personal financial situation and outlook. Now this post, about my dreams/fantasies about money. Have I mentioned I haven’t written much of anything in several days? I was really on a roll there, for a while. You suppose it’s thinking about money blocking me up, or being blocked up leading my mind to wander into even less comfortable territory than the tyranny of the blank page? Tonight, yet again, I couldn’t get to sleep. At 9PM, when we got home from seeing a free screening of Love and Other Drugs (a fun romantic comedy with a serious side (I want to say: secret agenda – they’ve built the funny, romantic movie around a movie about dealing with debilitating disease, with a side order of the medical & pharmaceutical industries are fucking us all), which also happens to have more fully-nude Anne Hathaway (and Jake Gyllenhaal) than I’ve ever seen before), Mandy went right to bed and I knew I had no chance of sleeping right away. So I stayed up to continue work on hand-painting an eBook cover. I reached the point where all I could do was wait for paint to dry at around 2AM, and I felt physically exhausted from the work, so I tried to go to sleep. After tossing and turning and thinking for an hour, I stood up to find that, yes, it was 3:10AM. So I ate something, grabbed the mail (Mandy and I filled out our ballots over dinner before the movie), and walked to the post office and back, all the while thinking. I think I came to an interesting point of interest along the way, so I’m sharing it. (Also: I still can’t sleep.) Continue reading My goal is to die broke, apparently.

money, money, blah, blah, blah (Oct. 2010)

In case you hadn’t noticed, I’m well aware my post titles are vague and that in the years and years I’ve been ‘blogging’ I largely keep writing about the same things, so I’ve begun trying to remember to add some sort of time/date/specific to the titles, so they can be told apart a bit easier. Not sure it’ll help.

Anyway, tonight I was up a bit late, and I tried to read for a while… I got a bit more through the book, but was yawning and as soon as I had to re-read a sentence, decided I’d try to get to sleep. At 2AM, after brushing my teeth, I lay down in bed and …. …. …. yeah. Tossing, turning, thinking, thinking, thinking… I simply was not able to sleep. In the last year or two I’ve tried to give up on trying to sleep by laying in bed after a solid hour of it. I’ve about got the hang of what “still awake & struggling to get anywhere near sleep after a sold hour” feels like, and when I stood up, frustrated, and pushed my iPhone’s home button to see what time it was, it was 2:57AM. Ugh. So, I’m up. As I begin this post, it’s after 3:45AM. (I’ve been twittering, doing bookkeeping, et cetera.)

Most of what’s keeping me awake deep into the night (and no, it isn’t strictly the crazy, though that’s certainly a contributing factor, and it isn’t just because I woke up at 11:30AM…) is that I’m stressed out (not entirely in a bad way) about money. Again, for emphasis: things aren’t bad.  It’s not like a month or two ago (vague in my head, I’m sure there was a definite moment in time, I just don’t recall how long ago that moment was, and don’t feel like doing the research necessary to calculate it), when I realized that, due to forgetting to adjust the size of two automated payments in the Spring, the cumulative effect had effectively put our bank account into negative numbers. That was a different sort of “stressed out about money.” That was “Ooh! I sure don’t want any bills failing to pay, late fees or overdraft fees or, really, any other sort of fees being tacked on to my already-not-good financial situation!” Right now, we’re fine. The corrections I made a couple of months ago worked and everything (as far as living paycheck-to-paycheck goes) is peachy-keen. Continue reading money, money, blah, blah, blah (Oct. 2010)

Quick writing update, Oct. 2010

In case you haven’t been following me on Twitter/facebook (why not?), here’s an update of where I’m at: I’m writing! A lot. (relatively) As I mentioned before, over the last year or so I’ve been getting an increasing number of direct requests from readers/fans of the first Untrue Tales… trilogy about if/when Book Four (and the rest of the series) will be available. A couple of phone calls and txt messages received this summer finally pushed me over the edge, and in July I began work on Untrue Tales… Book Four. Then in August I stagnated. But as I recently re-discovered, I really work best & write fastest & most creatively while fueled by hyper-sweet coffee drinks. (Did you know you can now gift money directly to my Starbucks card via Facebook? Weird, I know, but… hey, you’re welcome to!) So by mid-September I was occasionally popping over to my local Starbucks for a few hours of writing at a time, as budget allowed. Then I was gifted a Starbucks card for my birthday, and since then I’ve finished writing Book Four. If you’ve read the first three books and would like to be a Beta Reader for the rest of the series, I’d appreciate your feedback. I’ve already done an initial edit (hundreds of small changes, additions, and consistency corrections), and Wednesday night I read the entire book through, aloud, in one sitting, making a few more notes. Book Four is in pretty good shape, but I’d like a few more people looking at it before I release it as an eBook. Comment/email me if you’re interested.

I started work on Untrue Tales… Book Five on Thursday, and when Starbucks closed & kicked me out last night (Friday), I’d already passed 10k words. My current goal is to finish Book Five before the end of October so I can go into NaNoWriMo with a blank slate & have a more relaxed schedule (a whole month?) for Untrue Tales… Book Six. Which will be the end of the series. Two trilogies. I’m making good progress toward my goals of getting them done, one right after the other, so I can get the entire second trilogy out in paperback in the Spring of 2011.

Depending on time availability I’m planning to start podcasting Book Four on the Modern Evil Podcast starting Friday November 5th, which puts Book Five’s start in mid-January, so I’ll probably hold off on the Book Five eBook release until January as well. Then I can aim to release the Book Six eBook and the 2nd-trilogy paperback around the end of March / beginning of April (April Fool’s day?), 2011… That sounds good.  Gives me time to edit & get feedback, lets me do the audiobook versions before the print version (recording the audio version always catches a few more flaws, trust me), but doesn’t make my audience wait too much longer to get the rest of the story. People who can’t afford to buy the eBooks (they’re just $5.99 each!) or the paperbacks ($24.99/trilogy retail, $50/trilogy signed & author-direct) will be able to hear the whole thing for free on the podcast before summer. (Or read the free eBooks not long after that.)

After I finish writing the end of the Untrue Tales From Beyond Fiction – Recollections of an Alternate Past series (fingers crossed; by November 30th!), I can maybe get back to doing research for that alternate/zombie history series I was talking about this time last year. I have at least 10k more pages to read before I’ll be comfortable tackling that one. Lots of histories, biographies, and philosophy books, plus probably another stack of zombie books, and almost certainly a stack of steampunk (since I intend to invent the ‘solarpunk’ genre with the series). But that’s later. Right now, I’m writing about Trevor. Last night I wrote Trevor’s first confrontation with God. It was neat. Trevor and Toni got to go to Heaven, then God took them for a walk in the midst of the Garden. I think you’ll like it.

Numbers for September 2010 & Q3

Podcast audiobook downloads are WAY down, dropping 40% to 60% for nearly all titles over the last three months. My total podcast downloads has been dropping all summer, by up to 21% each month, and after dropping at a slower rate per month over the spring is fully 64% lower than at its peak in December of 2009. The 3 new audiobooks I’ve released since then have not helped much to offset this trend, contributing less than 5% to the total downloads so far this year.

Here are the eBook and Podiobook download numbers, as usual giving the total of eBook downloads, the total of Podiobook downloads, and the more-accurate (re: # of people who dl’d a full book) total downloads of the final episodes of each Podiobook, as: eBook/total-PB/final-PB

  • Lost and Not Found: 4945718
  • Dragons’ Truth: 9857255
  • Forget What You Can’t Remember: 1041,76551
  • Untrue Tales… Book One: 691,594134
  • Untrue Tales… Book Two: 761,852122
  • Untrue Tales… Book Three: 5587794
  • Cheating, Death: 62,988197
  • Lost and Not Found – Director’s Cut: 226037
  • More Lost Memories (full): 236239
  • More Lost Memories (ind. stories, eBook only): 0
  • Time, emiT, and Time Again (full): 1943 / N/A
  • Time, emiT, and Time Again (ind. stories, eBook only): 1
  • Total for all titles: 46311,670747
  • Total YTD: 4552174,65312,031
  • Total all-time: 12,974354,75423,150

Free eBook downloads have remained relatively flat all year, much more stable than during either 2008 or 2009. eBook sales, actual paid sales, are still small enough that a shift from selling four or five to selling three in a month is not statistically relevant. I sold 3 eBooks in September, one copy of Untrue Tales… Book Three on kindle, one copy of Cheating, Death at Smashwords, and one copy of the TeaTA short story Oracular Offspring at Smashwords. (I also had 10 free/coupon eBook downloads at Smashwords, half of them Cheating, Death.) That makes for $8.78 from my cut of eBooks sales in September. Wheee, the kindle 70% royalty makes a big difference – & is now also coming to me from UK sales (none of which I’ve ever/yet made).

I forgot to mention it last month, but since it’s happened 2 months in a row: I also sold 2 paperback copies of Cheating, Death via wholesale/LSI in each of August and September. I net $2.44/copy, so that’s $4.88/month or $9.76 for all four. While looking that up, I noticed that in June I sold 2 copies of Forget What You Can’t Remember via wholesale/LSI, earning $4.50. Not sure where these sold, exactly, but probably not Amazon, where their sales ranks are in the multi-millions (and could drop into the hundreds of thousands with just a couple copies moving per month, from what I hear); maybe book stores I’ve never heard of (or a certain horror book store I have) are shelving/selling them.

I should ask. *scoots off, sends a DM* If an actual bookstore is shelving/selling my zombie book, I’ll keep the discount at 50% indefinitely, rather than follow my new plan of dropping the discount to 20% after the book has been out a year. *twiddles thumbs* *waits for DM reply* Because really, yes, it’s still cool that a bookstore ever voluntarily shelved my book. The ~$3 more/copy I’d get from online stores doesn’t seem worth the cost of removing it from a physical bookstore, especially if it’s actually selling there. Plus, as an author, a reader, and a publisher, I’d rather do something nice for an indie bookstore who was willing to do business with me than to do something that was only intended to bring in more money from online bookstore sales. As you may have noticed, I almost always prefer doing something nice over making money.

In other news, I just finished writing Untrue Tales… Book Four. Now I just need to read, edit, re-read & copyedit, share with my Beta Readers & incorporate their feedback, design a cover, write copy, and do eBook layout & conversion for it. While writing Book Five. Before the end of the month. So I can write Book Six for NaNoWriMo. (because I’m crazy)

a little advice for writers

The following is excerpted from an email I just sent to a young, aspiring writer who was asking for advice on writing (who specifically mentioned they liked SciFi & that when they tried to write stories, they ran out of things to write before the story was done). I’ve been thinking a lot about how to write about writing for a book I want to do on how I managed to write (and moreso, went on to publish) a dozen books (so far), and perhaps will include something along the following lines of thought:

As far as advice that will help you with your writing, I can only recommend two things that I know will work for everyone. I’m sure you can find thousands of pieces of “sure-fire” advice from writers to writers, if you look around the internet (and dozens of books on the subject in the “Writing” section of your local book store), but different things work for different people. The only things I know work for everyone are the things you’re already doing: Read more. Write more. In that order.

Read as many books (and short stories and magazine articles and blogs and textbooks and whatever else you can get your hands on) as you have time for. When you find a piece that you really love, read it again. Think about what you love about it, what the writer did that really spoke to you, what works and what doesn’t. When you find a piece you really hate, do the same thing – try to figure out why you don’t like it, and how you think (specifically) you could improve it. Then read some more. Read new books, read old books, read books outside of your favorite genre (instead of SciFi, try a Western or a Mystery or a ghost story – or if you want to ease yourself into it, try Stephen King’s The Gunslinger; it’s a (great) SciFi/Western/GhostStory), and -if you want to be traditionally published someday- read books (and web sites) about what it takes to get published. (It’s hard, and takes a long time, and doesn’t pay well.)

In the midst of all that reading, write. A lot of people say you should write every day. If you’re able to, and if that works for you, then do it! Writing more is the best way to get better at writing. If you’re having trouble writing long stories, try shorter ones (more on that later), or try writing essays for a while, or write book reports, or write newspaper articles, or write blog posts, or write letters (or emails). It wouldn’t hurt to write a little of each of those things. Contemporary writers have been doing a lot of great things with really, really short stories that might be a good stepping stone if you’re finding yourself running out of words too quickly: While most publishers think a short story is 3000-5000 words (and some writers think they’re 5000-15,000 words), you can tell a complete story in what’s called “Flash” fiction, which is usually fewer than 1000 words (often just a few hundred words), and of you practice at it, it’s possible to tell quite an excellent story in only SIX WORDS. I know my wife sometimes teaches the six-word stories in her high-school English classes. Remember that most stories (even the shortest stories) still need a beginning, a middle, an end, and a reason to exist (Why are you writing it? Why would I read it?), even if that’s just to convey a particular image or idea or character/theme/setting. Trying to write a good story in a few hundred words can be a lot more difficult than using several thousand words, as I’m sure you’ll discover when you try it. Remember, though: If at first you don’t succeed, write, write again!

It’s good you’re starting young and (hopefully) have been writing stories since you were a child. Malcom Gladwell’s recent book, Outliers, talks a bit about how the difference between doing something well and being truly great at it may simply be a matter of accumulating enough practice. Gladwell pegs the line between good work and truly great work at around ten thousand hours (or about ten years’ worth) of practice. At one thing. So before anyone heard of The Beatles, all day every day for years they were playing together, practicing, getting better and better and -around the time they first hit it big- they happened to have put in around ten thousand hours of practice together. Before Bill Gates reached a point where he could write world-changing software and found Microsoft, he spent around ten thousand hours working with computers and developing software. –Of course, that’s just if you want to be world-changingly great. To be merely good (say, good enough that most of the time you start a story you’re able to finish it) probably only takes about one or two thousand hours’ practice. Don’t be discouraged that you’re not there, yet! Think of all the progress you’ve already made, just by doing your homework, writing emails, and *trying* to write stories (trying is more than most people ever do) – you’re well on your way to becoming a good writer. I consider myself to have quite a lot more practice yet to go, as I’ve only got three or four thousand hours’ practice writing so far, myself! ((The trick, I think, is that to be a *really* great writer, you’ve also got to get in thousands of hours of reading along the way – we’ve got it twice as hard as everyone else!))

I do tend to get carried away with my writing, though, in case this nearly-thousand-word emailpost didn’t make that clear. I apologize if my rambling was too long, or went off-track, or seemed discouraging. If 10,000 (or 1,000) seems like too scary a number, think instead about 1: Write one more story; you’ll always be a better writer for your next story than you were when you started your last.